past times...

i haven't blogged for a very long time because i have been spending my time doing the following:

- updating my Facebook and Twitter accounts
- playing games in Facebook (Mafia Wars, Vampire Wars, Sorority Life, Baking Life, Cafe World, Nighclub City)
- shopping at Forever 21, Promod, Etude House and The Face Shop almost every week
- painting my nails
- watching K-Pop videos on YouTube
- sound tripping
- watching downloaded TV shows (90210, The Vampire Diaries, Glee, Gossip Girl, Grey's Anatomy)
- reading books, of course

i'm having the time of my life. :)

a reminder...

all i want to do right now is read, write, and draw.

i have to remind myself over and over again that WORK IS NOT MY LIFE. it's just a part of my life.

My Summer So Far...

I've been back to work since last week. I was assigned to handle Reading tutorials for incoming Grade 1 students and Math tutorials for lower grade levels. As much as possible, I try not to stress myself. I don't over think or put pressure on myself. It's summer time so I need to relax even if I'm working.

A few weeks from now, I'll be visiting one of my good friends in Singapore. Every summer, my college friends and I always make it a point to go out of town. For the past summers, we went to Boracay and Puerto Galera. This year, we'll be having an out of the country trip. We were supposed to go to Hong Kong on May but decided to go there some other time. We also want to have a beach getaway on May before the school year begins.

I'm also reading fiction books and education-related books during my free time. So far I've read The Magician's Nephew by C.S. Lewis, The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants by Ann Brashares, and The Second Summer of the Sisterhood by Ann Brashares. I totally love the Traveling Pants. I'll be writing a review of it in my book blog in the next few days.

So far, I'm having a great time. I feel very peaceful. It has been a long time since I felt this way. I really thank God for being so good to me. I found the answers I have been looking for and I was able to accept them bravely and gracefully. For now, I'll savor and enjoy this great time I'm having.

Cleaning Up My Closets and Others

For years, it has been my ritual to clean up my closets during Holy Week. I'm not a Catholic so it doesn't have any connection with Holy Week. It just happens that it is the time of the year when I have nothing else to do but stay at home. So I always take that opportunity to reminisce and throw out things I don't need anymore.

My Mom has been complaining to me about the clothes hanged outside my cabinet. It's not that I don't have time or too lazy to keep them. There's no space available for them in my cabinet. I complain to myself every morning that I have nothing to wear but in reality, I have too many clothes that I don't know what to wear anymore. Even if I already donated some of my clothes last year to Ondoy victims, I still have a lot. So this week, I'll be sorting them again. My Dad already has a list of people who will receive the ones I don't wear anymore.

I need to arrange my shoe rack to make way for new shoes that I will be buying for the new school year.

I will sort out the papers and files stacked in my room. In all the rooms in our house, my room has got to be the most fire hazard because of all the papers I have. Seriously. I need to be more organized.

As for my books, I just need to arrange them. I haven't bought any book since August last year so all of my books has a place to stay.

I will also clean up my files in my laptop and iPod Touch. I have lots of pictures and videos in my laptop so I need to to put them in a disc. My iPod Touch has some applications that I rarely use so I need to delete them.

I also need to update my book blog, fashion and beauty blog, barkada blog, and this. Most importantly, I need to update my journal. I haven't written there for so long. I really need to brush up on my writing.

Lots of things to do. But I don't mind. After all these cleaning and updating, I would feel totally renewed. For some time, I felt lost to the point of not knowing myself anymore. Now I'm starting anew and picking up the pieces of myself that got lost along the way. I forgot the dreams I had and they are slowly coming back to me. I still want those dreams to come true. And today is the right time for me start again.

A New Beginning...

It was a long and tiring wait. For years, I waited for God's answer. He has given me clues. I have figured out the answer. But I held on for whatever hope I have inside me.

The answer I have been waiting for so long has arrived when I least expected it. It is very clear. It's not meant to be.

I know it seems like I wasted a lot of time waiting for an answer. But it would be harder to move on if there are "what ifs" in my mind.

I'm glad that for a moment in my life, he put a smile on my face when I needed it the most. His time in my life may be short, but it was worth it. He inspired me. He made me laugh. He made me cry. He made me strong. He made me look forward to new beginnings. He gave me hope.

Now, I could finally move on with my life.

Here's to a new and exciting life ahead of me...

:)

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year!

my first post for 2010. :)

i was really bored so i decided to check on my blog. i then realized that i only had 20 posts last year. it was a really busy year for me. lots of good and not-so-good things happened to me. i'm not going to enumerate them since they're all in the past now. what is important is that i'm still here, living and surviving.

rock on!

Realizations from My Recent Vacation

I had a short vacation with my sister and cousin last week. We went to Boracay to relax and unwind. I'll tell more about it in my upcoming posts. For now, I want to share some of the things I realized during our vacation.

- I miss writing and reading. I have been so preoccupied with work and watching TV shows that I neglected my books, journals, and blogs.

- Living in the province is really nice. Simple and quiet. I know that I'm a city girl but I want to challenge myself by living there (not necessarily Aklan). I wonder how long I would last. But it was nice not to think about shopping and stuff when I was at the province. Very peaceful.

- I really need to take a break from work every now and then. Most of my waking hours are spent at work or thinking about it. I have to remind myself that work is not my life. It is just a part of my life.

- I spend so much time in front of my laptop. I really need to lessen my internet time. It's not healthy.

- I want to go on a trip with my whole family. It has been a long time since we did that. We need to have a family trip before my parents migrate to the US next year.

- I need to travel and see more places here in the Philippines so that I could share more information about my country with my students.

- There are times when I think that my life sucks. It doesn't. My life is a zillion times better than the billions of people in the world.

I know that I just came back, but I'm now looking forward to my next vacation.